If mama ain’t happy, ain’t nobody happy!

DH and I have decided we will probably be moving in within the next couple of months.  We’ve been thinking about long-term and wanting to buy a house one day.  We can’t do that right now.  But if we move to a smaller (and crappier) place for 3-4 years, we can pay off our debts and get some savings built up and be ready to buy a house.  The only problem with that is that we both have baby fever for baby #2.  It doesn’t help that I have 4 friends pregnant right now (one due to have her baby in 2 days).  I want baby #2 so terrible.  We would be better suited to afford baby #2 if we move to a smaller place, but then we wouldn’t have room for that baby and we would be spending the money that would go towards paying off debts/saving for a house on daycare.  And then we wouldn’t have the money for the house  in a few years.  It’s like we’re having to choose between a house and a baby.  :(  Being grown sucks. 

I’m terribly disappointed with myself.  I lost 40 lbs last year between April and December.  Between December and now I’ve managed to gain back almost 20 lbs.  I know what to do to lose the weight.  And everyday I wake up thinking “Today’s the day I’ll start back”.  And then I blow it.  I don’t know what’s wrong with me.  I’ve got to do something though.  I feel absolutely horrible about myself.  But I think summertime will help me.  I can start going for walks either in the morning or at night and maybe that will help.  I just have to give myself a swift kick in the rear and get going at some point.